I'm Meredith, but I've gone by Tommy for over half my life. Why? Because the circus world I live in just aint big enough for two Merediths....and there were two of us. She kept her name.
I also have a circus related tumblr: tommytomlins.tumblr.com
"I Want to….But"
I want so much.
I want to move back to Chicago
I want to live in the city.
I want to perform every day
and I want to teach every other.
I want to be fit, strong, happy
I want to meet the one
I want to dive right into a new life
which would really be a new version of an old life.
I want to be brave.
But I have a roommate, a friend, an apartment here.
But I shouldn’t break my lease.
But I don’t yet have the opportunities
and I don’t want to leave my school.
But I feel I’m getting nowhere.
But I feel I’m meeting no one.
But I have no issue with my current standing
even though I’ve been standing still for so long.
But I am afraid.